Monday, February 12, 2018

•Thoughts of the Day : INSECURITIES•

I knew I was gaining some pounds. 

For the past few months I was trying to loose it for myself; for health sake and for myself to feel confident again. 

I can see myself getting flabbier, and I honestly didnt need anyone to point it out. But someone just had to say it, and since then I felt so ashamed of myself and disgusted. Not only did you bodyshammed me, you also said things that made me feel that I'm  the lousiest person alive. For someone that I really look up to, you were the LAST PERSON that I thought would NEVER bodysham me or made me insecure. 

Everyone takes awhile.. some even years to build their confidence and to get over their insecurities. But unfortunately it just takes a few SECONDS for someone to bring your confidence level back to zero. 

Regardless of whether you have power over me or anyone else, NO ONE has any right to bodyshame or demotivate anyone, especially if that person is a leader. But I guess we cannot expect everyone to think this way, cuz there are bound to be some rotten apples out there who reep joy from bringing others down. My respect for you has definitely gone down the drain and I will never see you the same again. 

I guess sometimes people come into your life to teach you a lesson and I think you are a lesson I have learnt. Eventhough you made me feel so hurt and made me ball my eyes out.. I'm not going to let you bring me down, I'm going to work hard and improve myself for the better; NOT FOR YOU BUT MYSELF. Im not going to let you prove to others that I'm  a disappointment or I'm  useless. I am special in my own way and no one can ever change that. 

"You should never let anyone crush you. Always carry yourself up again and rise even higher because at the end of the day its your life not theirs."

Ciao xo


Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Check out our Youtube Channel!

My Youtube Channel:

My sister's Youtube Channel(It has our old videos and mostly just covers):

I have two types of videos in my channel. I make videos of important events of my life/places I've traveled to (budd mostly just random videos) and covers with my sister.

We make covers for fun, as a hobby, nothing serious hehe. Ever since I moved to Singapore I haven't been active but I'll do better this year hehe These are the two covers we made..

1) Megan Trainor - Lips are Moving

2) Bastille - Pompeii

Enjoy! And don't forget to Subscribe to stay tuned! and also like, comment ;) You can also request for a song, don't be shy hehe And we'll try our best to make it happen! Thank youuu for tuning in!:D

Ciao <3

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Marry A Guy Who...

As you grow deeper into a relationship, u start noticing your partner's flaws. He/she tends to be a different person than you knew before but that doesnt change how much you still love them. The reason of your love for them and the reason of staying faithful will also change in time. By then you realize, it doesn't matter if they are charming, beautiful, matured, romantic, funny or any other ideal traits you can think of. For me, what i find most important in a person is that, they must be someone who loves you for who you are, someone who shows how dedicated and committed they are to you and someone who is afraid of losing you..

Being in a relationship is not all fun and games, not something to be taken lightly but seriously. A relationship must have a goal in order to stay strong. Being in a relationship doesn't mean its perfect, no fights no disagreements; that kind of relationship does not exist. Unless, ironically.. its not a healthy relationship whereby your partner is not honest with you, and whenever there's a problem they keep things to themselves and never wanting to share it with one another. Sometimes, the more disagreements u have, the more u grow closer together and understand each other, now that's a 'perfect' relationship.

Sometimes im very tempted to post events or pictures of me and my bf on social media like everywhere we go and everything we do together, but its very unnecessary after awhile cuz why would you want people to know what you're doing or where you are. Just enjoy the time and every moment spent with your other half, it doesnt have to be documented religiously on facebook or instagram. I mean once in a few dates is fine but not everything you do at every second or time. You dont need society to judge your relationship, it's only for you to know and experience. 

Moving on....

A few days ago i read this quote, it made fall more in love with Sam. And i realize he was everything that was written on it. I knew from the time we started as a couple, that we are going to marry one day. This even made me more stronger to keep up the relationship and make it grow, together with him. I have no regrets meeting him and talking to him when we met for the first time. He is a blessing, and even though he is a difficult person, he is still the one I choose to marry. Regardless of what his past was, i will still love every.single.part of him. He will be better overtime i just know it. I love you my Samuel Tan Boon Han, always and forever. Counting down to our second year of being together<3

Ciao :3

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Valentine's Day 2014

"I love lying next to you
I could do this for eternity
You and me—we're meant to be
In holy matrimony
God knew exactly what he was doing
When he led me to you.."

One of my fav song this month <3 Simple and yet meaningful. Enjoy :3

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!(i know its already the 15th today but what the heck.. haha) 14th Feb 2014 marks our 1 year anniversary and it still feels like when we just met. I love you so much sweetheart :* hehe

Ciao ~

Monday, February 3, 2014


Been having a lot of problems and mishaps trying to upload this video to Youtube. First it was the movie maker, next was the copyright problem, then suddenly my video doesnt play in Youtube, to make it worse, I accidentally pressed 'disliked' on my own video. YES I DID -.- And then I posted on fb with the Youtube link so many times but every time I do, there's always a problem(so embarrassing), I wasn't satisfied with the video quality of the first attempt because I took a video of a video with my phone; windows movie maker failed to make my file into a movie file. It was so blur so I decided to buy a better movie maker. When I finally got one, I did the whole video from scratch and uploaded it to Youtube which took ages, like half the day! I even left my laptop on before I left my house because it was taking so long. When it was uploaded I realized that there was a copyright problem and plus my video was taken down for awhile BUT I HOPE ITS REALLY WORKING NOW UGH. Never have I felt so annoyed in my life just trying to get one simple video to be uploaded. I really enjoyed making this video and I just wanted to share it to you guys.. With enough blood and sweat for the efforts I took to make this 5 minute video, I'm proud to present you a family video with the song Who You Love by John Mayer ft Katy Perry. Please like and subscribe if you would like to follow up with my random videos. There will be more in the future I hope:) Anyways, enjoy~

ciao <3